I Really Do(n’t) Care

Weird, I know. Its a defense mechanism I adapted at the beginning of the year that kicks in when I’m hurt, angry, frustrated, exhausted, hungry…lol. Seriously. Its the IDC syndrome. And the D stands for Do and Don’t.

Emotions are exhausting and I guess purging. And I’ve had my share of them in the first few days of the first month of the New Year. I made a silent pact with myself that I would not give any additional emotional energy to ANYthing. Not work, not relationships, not…much. Work, action, why of course, but true and deep emotion, nah. Its taxing, its draining, its borderline depressing.

And then there are moments when I reflect on all the situations, things, people that I Do(n’t) care to invest energy in and realize its not healthy, its not logical, its not even real. I’m in fact choosing not to go all the way there because I think 1-2 people may be reading this blog wondering what the HAY I’m talking about and I do not, no, I choose not to use the energy to explain.

So. Phil 4:8. I choose rather to focus on things that are good, pure, praise-worthy. Hoping the other stuff works itself out because I don’t feel like dealing, don’t even know how, don’t really want to figure it out because I have … other things to do. Things that are a wee bit more enjoyable, a tad bit easier, and more comfortable than going there.

I do(n’t) know.

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